Grace and peace to everyone reading this testimony.  I really feel unworthy to give this testimony, but for many who are hurting, who feel rejected and unloved, without  any hope in this world know that you are loved.  What would it be to gain the whole world and lose our souls,  to be without a loving saviour, who I found out, loved me more than I can express with words.  In short, my little life was a life of abuse, not inflicted by myself, but from others.  That abuse made me want to do harm to myself and others.  My heart was broken and I could see no way out.  As a child I remember watching the movie Jesus of Nazareth. What stayed in my mind throughout the years was the women who the mulitude of people wanted to stone. Jesus stood in her defence and asked those who wanted to stone her, if they themselves were without sin to cast the first stone.  No one could condemn her because they knew that they, in some way, had sinned themselves and broken God's laws also.  Even as a child I desired that forgiveness that he gave her.  It stayed in my heart until the day of my salvation.  See, that women was me, in need of forgiveness from a life of shame and guilt.  I tried to find it in people and by other means if it could ease the pain and erase the memories of torment and fear.  One day while I was just out and about, a man stopped to talk to me while on my way home. He told me that Jesus loved me and that he wanted me to live with him forever in heaven, that I needed to ask for forgiveness of my own sin, and to forgive others who sinned against me.  So, when I settle in and put my children to sleep, I knelt down with my face to the floor asking God to forgive me.  Tears poured, I could not stop them from flowing.  I was so sorry, Godly sorry.  I knew that I was forgiven.  I felt extreme heat like hot liguid, which I found out later was God's healing power.  I was being washed in his blood and forgiven for my sins.  I've been filled with his precious Holy Spirit, and I know that I am loved by Jesus, my redeemer, my God, and the love of my life.  To every soul reading this testimony and others as well, they tell of the Lord's grace and loving kindness toward all of us.  There are no barriers with God, no sin too small or too big that he won't forgive if we would lay everything at his feet, and give the master our hearts and our will.  Know this, you are truely loved by Jesus, whoever and wherever you are.  May God's undying love and mercy be with you.   Pastor Darren and Annette, thank you for really living for our Lord Jesus, and allowing me to share this testimony.  May the Lord bless you with everlasting joy and peace.  The wealth and riches of his kingdom be an eternsl gift to you for His Glory and His Praise.  He is worthy to be praised!  Amen.